Thank You…

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The past few months has proved quite the roller coaster some might say.

From being in a relationship to suddenly turning single.

Sad, to feeling utterly happy.

Negative to amazingly positive.

Weak to realising I’m stronger than ever.

Thats just a little insight to the down’s and up’s (see how I’ve twisted that round, cause I’m no longer down?!) of my emotions and reactions to how my little life has gone.

If anything, the past 2 months since the eventful moment that I was “dumped” has taught me more about myself – and the people around me – than ever before.

It’s made me realise my friends – my true friends – are more important than ever.

The one’s that will stand by my side no matter what other people say. The one’s that will always defend me, cause they know deep down I am the better person. The ones that won’t purposely hurt me just so they can prove a point. The ones that won’t hurt my other friends just cause they can.

Even a friend – who I have never had the chance to meet – yet! – who will talk to me like we’ve known each other for years. Who will listen – or read! – my words, and who I’d do anything for just to make her smile as much as she does for me. (I’d like to add here that despite my hatred for some men – I’m not gay!)

So through the thick and thin of the last 2 months, and the crazy moments that have risen unexpectedly, I’d like to say a huge, massive, gigantic, monstrous, walloping (this is a word – check your dictionary!) thank you to all my true friends and family who have held my hand and seen the light at the end of the tunnel so much sooner than I thought I would.

I couldn’t be happier and more positive about where I am now. And I’ll always be there for you all too.

x

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Where Am I Going?!

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So, with all this change, and knowing my travel plans have completely swung around in the opposite direction… Where the hell am I going I hear you ask?!

Well, I let me start from the beginning when I first graced the land that I’m heading for next year…

Rewinding back to 2009 when I headed off for my first ever travels to Australia, I made the decision to stop over a little longer on my way there to prevent the dreaded jet lag. Best decision I ever made, because in those 4 days I stopped in Kuala Lumpur, I fell in love with South East Asia.

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Ok, I only visited one city in one country out of many in SE Asia, but it still managed to tickle my taste buds in a very intriguing way (no, not in a dirty way!), in a way that urged me to return and explore it all. Everything.

I dreamt of returning and making my way through all the diverse cultures, cities and foods. And so – Ta Da! – Here I am… finally able to live out my dream, when I was so close to living out someone elses, I can finally do what I’ve wanted to do since that fateful day back in October over two years ago🙂.

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My plans are still being set… I’m currently flicking my through many guide books and Googling my little ass off discovering what I can get up to out there. I’ll be checking out fellow bloggers and their time in SE Asia too (if you know of any great advice out there, feel free to send links my way!).

Once SE Asia is out of my system, New Zealand will be on my list next to live/work/travel. Maybe I’ll hit up Bali if the mood takes me – who knows?! I love that the world is now my oyster… a vegetarian oyster mind you!

But I do know one thing for certain – somewhere amongst the mass of Asian delights and New Zealand heights I am most definitely revisiting where my heart was stolen in Oz – Byron Bay. From the second I arrived in this beautiful town, I loved everything about it and I couldn’t be more excited about going back there.

So stay tuned and I’ll let you walk through my journey with me. The highs, the lows, the fear, the excitement. It’s all gonna be there🙂.

Bucket Fillers

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Carrying on from my last batch of Bucket List fillers, I’ve returned to squeezing in more🙂. Today’s batch is a mixture of travel, but mostly what I want to get from my little life in terms of the inevitable “growing up” if you will. Some might think it’s a little dull… but thats why it’s my Bucket List – not yours!

If you have any more suggestions to add to this ever growing Bucket, feel free to add your ideas🙂.

41. Smother myself in mud at the Sabeto Mud Baths in Fiji.

My mate posted photos on Facebook on this place and it looked amazing and SO much fun!

42. Go to a fashion show catwalk.

Not like one I went to at college… surprisingly I studied Fashion at college – you’d never guess! But a real top designer catwalk would be amazing to be part of!

43. Win more than £10 in the lottery or a scratch card.

I was given a scratch card as part of a Christmas present (brilliant idea might I add!) and won 20 smakaroonies!

44. Wine more than £50 in the lottery or scratch card.

Well I managed no.43… I can only hope!

45. Go on the Sex And The City tour in New York City.

If you know me at all, you will know that I love SATC. I want to be one of those geeks on the bus… oh yes… and stopping off at Magnolia Bakery just so I can have one of those cupcakes like Carrie and Miranda. Yup… I’m that geek!

46. Sell a painting for more than £100

One day… perhaps. The most I have made from a painting has been £30 so far… Here’s hoping!

47. Travel 100% solo… and get out alive.

I’m currently planning it… Perhaps someone will join me along the way, but for now it’s solo all the way🙂. I’m a little scared I’ll admit!

48. Discover if soul mates truly exist.

If they do… perhaps I’ll find mine. I’ll keep you noted if such a thing crops up in my life🙂.

49. Get onto the property ladder.

Yes, a little boring you might say, but I would love to own my own place one day. Whether that’s by myself or with my future other half, who knows?! Plus I love decorating and interior design of all kinds, and doing that with my own place would be amazing🙂.

50. Visit Machu Picchu In Peru.

I’ve researched into South America quite a lot, and this place takes my breath away… and I haven’t even got there! I know it’ll happen one day🙂.

Am I Running Away?

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That was the question that entered my mind just the other day – Am I running away?

Your probably thinking what? What are you running away from?

A big hairy spider?

A looming deadline?

Writing another blog post?

Nope. None of them unfortunately. The question that, out of the blue for no reason what so ever, begged the answer was –

Am I running away from real life?

Again, you’re probably thinking… what do you mean by real life? Kerri, you are talking gibberish – again. (Fear not, I do the gibberish thing a lot, but this time I actually have a point!)

What I mean by real life is the whole career thing, finding myself another half to spend the rest of my life with, stepping into the scary world of mortgages, having a family. Basically – settling down.

Ok, yes, I am only 24, I admit that isn’t old. However, I have never ever known what to do with my life asides from travel. My mum always knew she wanted to be a nurse, and hey presto, she became a nurse. It wasn’t easy for her, but she got there. But at least she had that dream to be something.

It wasn’t till my previous relationship ended back in 2008, that the urge to travel suddenly came around. I dropped out of uni – a major decision to make – saved for a year and just flew off. A year later, I came home and had everything set –my new boyfriend, travel plans, plans for coming home and where to live. Everything was sorted.

But then that was taken away as well. And now here I am planning my travels – solo – and heading off round the world again, and still no clue what to do apart from that.

And it makes me wonder. If I do simply travel – yes it’ll be amazing – but if I come home still single, still no idea what to do with my career, still nowhere near getting onto the property ladder, let alone moving away from my parent’s home. What will I do? I’ll just be back to where I am now even closer to the big 30… a little wiser perhaps from the travel. But what will I do after?

I’m sure my parents would be thrilled if I simply tell them I plan to travel every few years and come home to scrounge and live off them! At some point I’m going to have to settle somewhere and find myself a job and save for that dreaded mortgage and be a big girl.

But am I running away from starting that now? Of course I want to travel, if that’s my only dream right now, why hold it off for another dream I might not find at home? I hoped that when I travelled Oz, I’d find my niche in life, apart from my creative artistic flare returning, I didn’t find anything. Was I hoping for too much?

For now, I know I’m not ready to get into the world of mortgages or rent, or start a family anytime soon, I know travelling is what I want to do.

But am I running away from it all? Am I running away from growing up?

Changes :)

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I’ve always known life is full of surprises. Just when you think you have most of it figured out, something is dropped in the ocean and creates a whole new wave of direction.

This past few weeks has proved massively changing in the life of Kerri (thats me!). My plans that I had been set on for so long were suddenly thrown off course when my relationship ended with the curly boy. And although part of me wishes it didn’t have to end so suddenly, the other half of me is realising this is perhaps what I needed – change.

A long distance relationship was something I always knew would be hard. But I tell you this now… imagine how hard it would be and times that by 100! It has to be the most difficult thing I have ever done – send me to the other side of the world anytime (!) – and I’m certainly in no rush to do long distance again! Asides from the obvious missing one another, it made me realise something, something I didn’t like. I was changing – but not in a good way.

Not a day went by without me worrying over something. No matter how small it may have been, I would worry about it. And worse still, I could feel my insecurities growing about myself. I didn’t feel as confident about myself anymore, and the stress was killing me. I tried so hard to be positive; telling myself we’ve got this far we can keep going, thinking of our travels together, knowing it would’nt always be this difficult… but nothing would work.

So when ‘we’ were over, and I know this makes me seem insensitive, but I felt something was lifted off my shoulders. Now I could think about me, and only me. When I’m in a relationship, I always think of the other person, or us. But for once I could now be selfish. And I’ve felt more than ever that now I’m looking on things in a much more positive way. And I couldn’t love that more.

Even though my travel plans have made a complete U-turn, and I’m scared of travelling alone with my lack of confidence, I’m still pushing myself to be positive. I want to do this for me. I want to get out there and push myself to speak to fellow travellers and explore the world to the max. I need to do this. If anything, I think this is why this happened… Someone out there is telling me I need that kick up the backside to be a more positive confident girl!

Sometimes change can be a petrifying thing. Hell, I am petrified! I can’t wait to travel, and I’m so excited for everything I’m going to see/hear/taste, but there is a huge element of fear deep inside shouting at me “What the hell are you doing woman?!”

I just know that this change is all for the best. For me, and for him.

And so… my new travel plans will commence, and the change in me is already building. In a cheesy sort of way (a nice cheese… none of that parmesan crap!) , I can see myself being someone I can live with! After all, if I don’t like who I am, how do I expect someone else to like me?! So stay tuned… my blog will come back to life again… with my travel plans being explored, tickets being booked, blog concepts coming to life and this little lady finding herself once again🙂.

Has anyone else had a sudden change in their life and found the positive side to it? I’d love to hear some stories🙂.

“Be audacious enough to believe in the wisdom of a divine plan”

The Lessons We Learn

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Well it’s true what they say, life can throw you some challenging moments at you from time to time. Back in 2009 my boyfriend at the time finished us and it left me wondering what to do next…

Fast forward exactly 3 years from there and history is repeating itself once again. My future plans with my other half were stripped away from me when we decided to call it a day on our relationship.

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Two Years Ago…

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I can’t quite believe it.

Two years ago to this very day I was climbing upon a plane at around 5pm tonight ready to start my year in Australia.

I had been counting down to this very point for exactly 247 days since I booked the ticket with Air Asia. I couldn’t be more excited! I was nervous, apprehensive, petrified all at once. The counting down seemed to last a lifetime, yet here I was taking those last few steps on the plane that would take me away from home for 366 days.

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